~ Lyrics ~

So how long can I fake a smile?

Got no lungs to run a mile

You’ll be broken in a while

Had to grow up as a child

Used to think that shuttin’ up was bein’ tough

I used to think that holdin’ it in

Made you good enough

I used to keep it all inside until bad habits built up

Crumpled paper all around the ground I made up

Little lies to justify how I was feelin’

Now I’m addicted to my own self destruction

Gotta have it, bad habits ain’t it tragic we graduated from rubber bands to semi-automatics

Hidden in our baggage poppin’ off at anybody who attacks our self conscience

Cause we’re so self conscious asking God for some confidence

I got so much left to say, I never know how to say it

I got a lot on my brain so go ahead you can weigh it

And yes I’ve tried to explain, but I just get frustrated

So get back, stay back and remember I’m dangerous

Everyone wants to be heard but no one ever wants to listen

So I’m talkin’ to the air to see if that’ll ever fix it

And I’ve been tryin’ to ask for help but I don’t get it from nobody

So I do it by myself and now we’re all bloody

So remember that it’s only just pain

And I can come and go just like every other day

You feel bad now but you won’t pray

And I don’t think God cares anyway

Why do I have to go on?

Like I have to write another song

And play along

To this game you’ve prolonged?

But I belong

To the great unknown

Beyond this lie

I’ll go to the after life

And I’ll leave you all behind

Like a ghost I’ll fly

Pathetic, pessimistic what a cynic hypocritical

I’m a victim of the feelin’s cry for help stuck in my throat

I could choke, I could smoke, poison is the antidote

So make a post, think you’re woke

But I’m alone cause you don’t know

The half of it feelin’ sick to my stomach

Even if I run from it, I can feel the dark comin’

I can feel the pain inside

Little lies I try to hide

But what’s it matter thoughts are shattered

I’m a victim to my own pride

There’s violence in the silence

So shut up and you’ll find it

I take the pain and hide it

Then it fights me when I’m silent

Man it’s violent

I can feel it problems pillin’ to the ceiling

Cause I never bring it to the open

I was hopin’ we could try it

Shut up David, oh just save it, ain’t no body cares

Who was there when you were scared?

Broken down and unprepared

To deal with monsters in your closet

In your chest and in your mindset

No one ever really wants it

So they beat you till you’re quiet

And they take the words you say

And use it all as ammunition

So I built up this bulletproof vest

My whole image is fiction

If the truth will set me free

Then why do you want to choke me with it?

I tried to be honest and the you use it as a weapon

It’s so hard to trust people

We were made from evil

And I can never find the right words

To explain why my head hurts

Everyone’s deceitful

They just pretend to be peaceful

So I put my faith in fires

And then get mad when it burns

So remember that it’s only just pain

And it can come and go just like every other day

I have so much left to say

But I doubt you ever cared anyway

Why do I have to go on?

Like I have to write another song

And play along

To this game you’ve prolonged?

But I belong

To the great unknown

Beyond this lie

I’ll go to the after life

And I’ll leave you all behind

Like a ghost I’ll fly