Faithful Scars

~ Lyrics ~

Could you be here tonight?

Cause I can't be alone

It's just me at home

Wishing you were here

Wishing you were near

Instead I have to savor the times we had

Cause now you’re gone

Now you’re gone

There's nothing left to say

Why did you lead me on?

Where did you learn this game?

I have to be strong

I've played for so long

Now you took my heart and played me like a pawn

I can't go on

I have no one

To come and save me from this life on the run

My broken heart

Play it smart

A bullet loaded on your mind from the start

Tear me apart

Leave me with the pieces of my scars 

The bleeding stars that shine like you

Cause they’re too far

You’re so far

Far from me

My faithful scars

Let them bleed

Let them bleed

You still can't seem to say

Why did you lead me on?

Where did you learn this game? 

It's been so long

And how did you find it easy,

To walk away and leave me?

Was it worth it to let me go,

And leave a shattered soul?

I can't breathe

I swear I'm drowning watch the waves

Surrounding me

I can't go on

I can't go home

No one to save me from this path that I'm on

My broken heart

Play it smart

A bullet planted on your mind from the start

Tear me apart

Take away the pieces of my scars 

The bleeding stars that shine like you

Cause you're too far

You’re so far

Far from me

My faithful scars

Let them bleed

Let me bleed

(Ok)

Let me be

Let me breathe

Let me bleed

Need therapy 

Let me scream 

You played me, and made me

Then hate me, create me, to be 

A monstrosity, watched me suffer like a movie scene 

It’s so obscene I’ve seen the unseen 

Tell me it’s a joke 

Tell me it’s a game 

Tell me it’s a prank that you never meant to play 

You’re never gone but you’re so far 

Tell me how you are 

Cause I know life is hard 

You play my heart just like the cards

You killed the stars

I thought you were flawless 

Faultless left me in the mess of all this 

When did it become a crime to care and when did you stop being lawless (uh)

I miss your kiss  

I wrote you stories on my wrist

But blood is bliss 

When love is missed 

Can you feel the mist of tears? 

Watch darkness disappear whenever you’re here 

But you’re not here 

You don’t text my phone 

Where did you go

Why don’t you call 

Why did you leave me alone

It’s just me at home 

Your sins write my cinema 

Your script was so venomous

When in the world did we ever get to this 

Give my heart a label 

My scars are so faithful 

My stars are so fatal

I love and I hate you

How could you find it easy

To leave this house without me

Was it worth it to run so far 

and leave my faithful scars

I still can't breathe

I swear I'm falling 

Watch my world collapse on me

I can't go on

I can't go home

No one to save me from this path that I'm on

My broken heart

I've tried so hard

A bullet planted on my brain from the start

Rip me apart

And take the pieces of my faithful scars 

The bleeding stars that shine 

But you're too far

You’re so far

Far from me

My faithful scars

Let them bleed

Let them bleed

Let me bleed


Growing Up

~ Lyrics ~

You can find me lost in the sea of chaos

You know I'm down to bite the frost

But the frostbite made us

And I ain’t crying out for help but I need God to save us

So if you’re looking for a hero then you’re bound to hate us

I got indecision in a system in a circle spinning

I’ve been praying for a minute but the world just keeps on spinnin’

I’ve been looking for a savior

But the flavor I savor for later seems to lead me right back to another demon

I ain’t asking for permission

I’m not asking that you get it

I’m just saying that I lived it

I’m just saying that I lived in a pretty pessimistic position

Pretty altercation 

Pretty sure that pretty soon my heart’s gonna take a vacation

And it won’t come back 

So we can’t retract

As a matter of fact

I feel better at last

And I’m sure it won’t last

But we all live too fast

So when I turn my back 

On the past I’m never coming back 

I don’t need no explanation

All across the nation

I’m in disoration

I won’t give no explanation

All across the nation

We're in disoration

Looking for the antidote hoping it’ll crack the code 

But none of it is proven though so it’s all theoretical 

Am I skeptical a little bro but I don’t know which way to go so if I slow the roll will I lose control oh!

Now I’m losing my faith in my own salvation 

They’re telling me to be patient but I’m a worthless creation 

Cause I’m a sin sick sensation with a sadistic fixation 

On my darkest illations I give in to temptation 

And I’ve been standing on the line with my mind on the other side 

For way too long for my pride to be the counter slide 

It’s only a matter of time self destruct and cyanide

Running through my veins like I’ve never been so high 

So send a prayer 

To the man upstairs 

The upside’s looking down while it’s raining down tears 

You can’t say it's better when I’m looking through the fears 

Tryna find the bright side but I’m looking in the mirror 

Tryna find the bright side but I’m looking in the mirror 

Fully fixated on faded foggy frontiers

Still tryna find the bright side hiding in the mirror

But between me myself and I it ain’t clear

I don’t need no explanation

All across the nation

I’m in disoration

I won’t give no explanation

All across the nation

We’re in disoration 

I Wish

I Wish

I wish we didn’t have to cry

I wish that life didn't pass us by

I wish it'd get better overtime

I wish we were fine

I been tired lately, uninspired lately 

I don’t wanna make you think you got a chance to save me 

I don’t wanna make you think you got the chance to break me 

I wanna make you think you got the chance to change me 

I don’t wanna make you cry cause I 

Know it gets better in time but I 

Feel like I’ve been losing my mind and I 

Think I finally know what it’s like to die

So whatchu want then? Cause I’m exhausted 

Once I finally get a grip then I’ve lost it 

if I ever think for me then I’m finally toxic 

If I get fresh air then I’m frost bit

But I feel so numb like a holstered gun 

Like a burnt out sun can’t help no one 

I feel so dumb if I turn to run 

So I’ll take and face it in my lungs 

I wish we didn’t have to cry

I wish that life didn't pass us by

I wish it'd get better overtime

I wish we were

I wish we never said goodbye

I wish that I could sleep at night

I wish I was mentally alright

I wish we were fine

I’m burnt out somehow 

I wanna feel awake but the suns down 

I wanna feel free but I’m chained down 

And I wanna feel alive but I’m broke now

Said I’m burnt out it’s ironic cause my whole world burns down 

With a slurred sound wanna take a break and fake it with my blurred frown

But a dollar can't sell a dirt crown  

Don’t get it twisted I’m not depressed but I’m overwhelmed 

So just take what’s left 

I’m just a wreck and I’m over stressed 

And I can’t stress enough how important it is 

That you understand how much weight you have hidden in your words 

So be careful with your tongue before It loses it’s worth 

I wish we didn’t have to cry

I wish that life didn't pass us by

I wish it'd get better overtime

I wish we were

I wish we never had to fight

I wish that I didn't need a light

I wish I wasn't lonely every night

I wish we were fine

Like a Ghost

~ Lyrics ~

So how long can I fake a smile?

Got no lungs to run a mile

You’ll be broken in a while

Had to grow up as a child

Used to think that shuttin’ up was bein’ tough

I used to think that holdin’ it in

Made you good enough

I used to keep it all inside until bad habits built up

Crumpled paper all around the ground I made up

Little lies to justify how I was feelin’

Now I’m addicted to my own self destruction

Gotta have it, bad habits ain’t it tragic we graduated from rubber bands to semi-automatics

Hidden in our baggage poppin’ off at anybody who attacks our self conscience

Cause we’re so self conscious asking God for some confidence

I got so much left to say, I never know how to say it

I got a lot on my brain so go ahead you can weigh it

And yes I’ve tried to explain, but I just get frustrated

So get back, stay back and remember I’m dangerous

Everyone wants to be heard but no one ever wants to listen

So I’m talkin’ to the air to see if that’ll ever fix it

And I’ve been tryin’ to ask for help but I don’t get it from nobody

So I do it by myself and now we’re all bloody

So remember that it’s only just pain

And I can come and go just like every other day

You feel bad now but you won’t pray

And I don’t think God cares anyway

Why do I have to go on?

Like I have to write another song

And play along

To this game you’ve prolonged?

But I belong

To the great unknown

Beyond this lie

I’ll go to the after life

And I’ll leave you all behind

Like a ghost I’ll fly

Pathetic, pessimistic what a cynic hypocritical

I’m a victim of the feelin’s cry for help stuck in my throat

I could choke, I could smoke, poison is the antidote

So make a post, think you’re woke

But I’m alone cause you don’t know

The half of it feelin’ sick to my stomach

Even if I run from it, I can feel the dark comin’

I can feel the pain inside

Little lies I try to hide

But what’s it matter thoughts are shattered

I’m a victim to my own pride

There’s violence in the silence

So shut up and you’ll find it

I take the pain and hide it

Then it fights me when I’m silent

Man it’s violent

I can feel it problems pillin’ to the ceiling

Cause I never bring it to the open

I was hopin’ we could try it

Shut up David, oh just save it, ain’t nobody cares

Who was there when you were scared?

Broken down and unprepared

To deal with monsters in your closet

In your chest and in your mindset

No one ever really wants it

So they beat you till you’re quiet

And they take the words you say

And use it all as ammunition

So I built up this bulletproof vest

My whole image is fiction

If the truth will set me free

Then why do you want to choke me with it?

I tried to be honest and the you use it as a weapon

It’s so hard to trust people

We were made from evil

And I can never find the right words

To explain why my head hurts

Everyone’s deceitful

They just pretend to be peaceful

So I put my faith in fires

And then get mad when it burns

So remember that it’s only just pain

And it can come and go just like every other day

I have so much left to say

But I doubt you ever cared anyway

Why do I have to go on?

Like I have to write another song

And play along

To this game you’ve prolonged?

But I belong

To the great unknown

Beyond this lie

I’ll go to the after life

And I’ll leave you all behind

Like a ghost I’ll fly

Time Moves Fast

“I wanted to write ‘Time Moves Fast’ from the perspective of a ghost at my own funeral, watching everyone.”
— Solomon Z

~ Lyrics ~

As I write down these lines

Mom I ask you not to cry

Even though I'm not home

When you think of me and smile

Just keep running that last mile

And let the memory 

Fade away

 Never doubt how much I loved

 Never think you're not enough

 You're soul

 Is beautiful

There are some things I may have said

That made you feel upset

I'm sorry

But please

Mom please remember me

For the man I strived to be

Not the man who couldn't get set free

I tried 

Tried to live with no regrets

To live with no unsaid

But you know, time moves fast

Dad I don't know what to say

Nice to see that you're still late

You can't miss me

Cause you were never near

Could you listen to me now

When you know it's my last bow

Am I finally

Worthy

I’m not mad at you for me

I'm mad for the family

Will you be there

While I'm gone

I tried to show them while I's there

What it's like for one to care

But I can't do that

Anymore

But please 

Dad, please just don't cry here

I don't wanna hear the empty tears

Echoing inside these ears

I tried

God knows I've tried to make it right

To come back by your side

But you know, time moves fast

And dear brothers please don't fear

Know I'll always love you dear

I can wait to see you

On the other side

But please

Cherish the time that you still have

It's okay if you feel sad

It's okay to forget the past

And let me fade

Disappear from your view

So many things I meant to do

But you know, time moves fast

Time moves fast

I know that my story is over now 

But yours doesn't have to end 

I was just a character in yours’ to help you grow 

I can rest happy knowing that 

Just remember all the good times, how beautiful it was

And the happy memories that we shared

And when you go to lay flowers on my grave 

Just remember, even though I failed

I tried to be a good man

Farewell

Why Would You Let Me

~ Lyrics ~

I would rather die

Than to watch you cry

Why would you let it go this far

Why would you let me break your heart?

Ever love someone so much that you’d give the world for them 

Then you turn around and see you’re the one hurting them 

You realize real quick that you don’t deserve ‘em 

So you get insecure and you start to burn ‘em 

What a horrible cycle what a vicious place 

What a heart break what a bitter taste 

You hope it gets better but never does 

I think that’s the part that really cuts 

I was never enough but she thought I was 

I don’t think you understand how much this cuts

You can’t tell me that it’s easier just to give up 

She’s a part of me now she’s in my blood

But I couldn’t give her what she needed 

I think I’m finally defeated 

And the right choice ain’t ever easy 

I just hope it’s what she needed 

I would rather die

Than to watch you cry

Why would you let it go this far

Why would you let me break your heart?

Why would you fall so hard

Why would you let me leave a scar?

When we broke up she kissed my cheek 

She said don’t let this be the last time for me 

I think my heart is finally broken 

Cause now everything’s numb like my skins frozen

She told me she loves me more than life itself 

And I told her you don’t get it my life is Hell 

And I can’t love you if I don’t love myself 

So to save you I had to kill myself 

Now there’s nothing I want more than to see her right now

But I hope she falls in love and I hope it works out

I drown, all my pain in a bottle

Knowin’ it’s all my fault is the hardest pill to swallow

I wallow in my own self destruction

But I always do it almost like I love it

It’s all I ever do can’t get enough of it

But I want you to know you’re responsible for none of it

I would rather die

Than to watch you cry

Why would you let it go this far

Why would you let me break your heart?

Why would you fall so hard

Why would you let me leave a scar?

It’s the hardest thing that I’ve ever done 

Maybe I’m afraid of love or I always run 

What’d be wrong with me cut my gums 

And I’m so numb I been scaring my lungs

I still have your letter but I ain’t ever read it 

Cause it would hurt too bad man Imma regret it 

Well then why did you do it 

Man I had to there’s nothing more to it 

I’m so childish with feelings 

I’m so selfish it kills me

I’ll be selfless if you let me 

I wish you the best be happy 

Have my heart I don’t want it anymore 

Last thing I said before I walked out the door

Now I’m driving too fast hope I don’t crash 

Scratch that wish we could go back 

Before we got attached 

We were so close to the ending it for months 

So now that it’s over why does it feel so wrong 

I would rather die

Than to watch you cry

I mean every word of that

It’s just um, I wanted to be the guy that protected you

I wanted to keep you safe

And now I’m the guy that hurts you

Why would you fall so hard?

Why did you let me leave a scar?

Huh?

I would rather die

Than to watch you cry

Why would I let it go this far

Why would I let you break my heart?

Why would I fall so hard

Why would I let you leave a scar?

I uh… I truly am sorry