Au Revoir

~ Lyrics ~

Ugh!

Yeah I’ve been chasing

I been chasing my past

And I been running so fast but I can never make it last

I been chasing a feeling that used to put me in a cast

Self harm, self destruct, self sabotage, and then collapse

The past is deadly

And I can’t let the demons catch me

They’re creeping, crawling, sinking, thinking they can really best me

But if they think that they can beat me then they ain’t met me

Cause if I fall down then I nap and let the sun reset me

So if I give up, it’s only cuz I couldn’t get up

And if I get up, it’s only cuz I didn’t give up

And if I give in, it’s only cuz I never let up

But if I win then it’s only cuz I fought to get up

I was nothing but depression hidden deep down inside me

I was nothing but mistakes I made way back behind me

I was nothing but a dreamer dreaming I wasn’t stuck

I was waiting die deep inside afraid cry but

I am better than the past that they use to define me

I am better than the lies that they use to describe me

I am better than the drugs that they used to prescribe me

Au Revoir to the past, the old me is dying

You can’t tell my story

And you don’t write the page

I was trapped inside a memory mentality decay

Plus you don’t even know me

You don’t wear the stains

You have never been trapped inside a shadow shamelessly fade

I will not be lectured, and I will not be ridiculed

And I will not feel guilty for things that I do

I will not feel guilty for what I’ve been through

I will not feel bad just cause I’m not like you

Well I’m not dead yet

But I can feel it

There’s something in my head that

I can’t deal with

But I’m not dead yet

So I’m not finished