Blood Red Eyes

~ Lyrics~

I can still see the blood

And I can still feel the cut

I am not

In a rut

This is a feeling in my gut

My therapist told me

Don’t go into my mind

My therapist told me

Only look at the light

But she laughed at me as she choked my life

Now nothin’s the same

And nothin is right

HEY

I cut myself again, am I good enough now?

I wasn’t good enough then

HEY

This is payment for my sin

I can feel the blood

This is my recompense

I take the pain from my heart

And put it in my arm

You caused the self hate that started self harm

And I don’t mean to scare you

Don’t raise the alarm

I’m sorry if I took it just a little too far

I like the blood

I like the cuts

I like my Hell

Cause it makes me feel better about myself

Oh shhhhh

Sorry

You don’t like mental health

I’ll keep it on the down low so no one can tell that

I see blood and I see guns and I see red rivers run

I’m disturbed, ain’t you heard

I’m just gonna make you hurt

I see blood and I see guns and I see red rivers run

I’m disturbed, ain’t you heard

I’m just gonna make you hurt

It’s just me and those

Blood red eyes

They’re tearin’ at my chest and they’re crawlin’ down my spine

Are you happy now that you’re inside my mind

Probably not, you’re so happy being blind

Sometimes I wake up with no one at home

And then I realize that I’m not alone

Don’t call me and don’t text my phone

Cause if he hears noise, well then he’ll know

…

He won’t give me the time of day so I’ll see him at night

He whispers in my ear like “yo grab the knife”

It seems so therapeutic

And I can’t rebuke it

There’s something in my soul that just tells me to do it

I’ll let you cut me if you’ll love me

Look at the blood, ain’t it lovely?

It reminds me of you because we’re both still runnin’

Now I’m drainin’ and I’m empty

And you can’t even help me

Cause you hate me you don’t love me

You can’t tell me what’s healthy

Now I’m lying on the ground

I see black all around

It’s closin’ in on me

Is this where shadows are found?

And you don’t wanna hear it

Yea, ain’t that the spirit

Cause you don’t like dark music

Fine I’ll find a knife and redo it

I see blood and I see guns and I see red rivers run

I’m disturbed, ain’t you heard

I’m just gonna make you hurt

I see blood and I see guns and I see red rivers run

I’m disturbed, ain’t you heard

I’m just gonna make you hurt

It’s just me and those

Blood red eyes

They’re tearin’ at me and they’re crawlin’ down my spine

Are you happy now that you’re inside my mind

Probably not, you’re so happy being blind

Sometimes I wake up with no one at home

And then I realize that I’m not alone

Don’t call me and don’t text my phone

Cause if he hears noise, well then he’ll know

It’s just me and those

Blood red eyes

They’re tearin’ at me and they’re crawlin’ down my spine

Are you happy now that you’re inside my mind

Probably not, you’re so happy being blind

Sometimes I wake up with no one at home

And then I realize that I’m not alone

Don’t call me and don’t text my phone

Cause if he hears noise, well then he’ll know