How Could I Be Honest

~ Lyrics ~

If I wanted to hurt you I’d have done it by now 

I see how you sink down and look down my path 

In a valley scary alley cat gonna pounce at anyone he can get at 

Don’t tell me what you want from me 

Honestly it’s hard to see honesty from hypocrisy 

Or the vision in the past and the man in the mirror 

Then it all come to me but it’s never any clearer

So sorry and I apologize 

But you can see straight through my lies 

So look into my eyes one last time and tell me that we’re gonna be fine 

Cause I cry every night when my light goes twilight in the lime light 

When I fight it’s more like a knife in hindsight 

Every time that I try to make it right so

Tell me what you want from me 

Honestly I can’t really see anybody being stuck with me 

And honestly I could change everything if I wanted to 

But I never do who knew 

I was the bad guy this time 

I was the mad guy this time 

I’m the sad guy this time

I’m sorry if I lied 

You didn’t know her

You didn’t hold her

You didn’t loose her

How could you reminisce

You don’t know her

You don’t hold her

You don’t loose her

How could you miss this

You never loved her

You never hurt her

You never lost her

How Could I be honest

Threw you for a loop 

Like a hoola-hoop times two 

And I know what I do is so bad but 

I don’t change I’m insane I’m crazy I’m evil I’m dangerous to anybody new

Did anybody ask you who asked you I asked you that’s who 

Oh dear where we go again, no wind and we’re gonna have to row again

Back out off of the fairy getting scary oh my gosh don’t carry me 

Don’t carry this conversation 

I can’t take it I’m gonna break my phone on the pavement I hate it 

Something’s in my mind with a lie and abrasion 

I can’t save you this time 

And I’m sorry cause I have to tell you I lied 

I’m kissing you and I’m thinking of her

And I don’t mean to be mean I know it hurts but 

That’s the truth and you asked 

But you weren’t ready for the honesty so I passed 

But I tried to make it better though 

So you can’t at least be proud of that 

But I didn’t really know 

That it would break you down so bad 

You didn’t know her

You didn’t hold her

You didn’t loose her

How could you reminisce

You don’t know her

You don’t hold her

You don’t loose her

How could you miss this

You never loved her

You never hurt her

You never lost her

How Could I be honest

Cross my heart, I hope I die 

Break me down and cut me up inside 

I don’t want to make you cry 

To protect you I lie 

Sorry if it all back fires sometimes 

I tried

I don’t want to tell you I still love her 

I don’t want to make you to compete with another 

I don’t want to make you suffer but you still do 

I’m sorry darling this is nothing new 

I’m frozen why I can’t let it go 

Both trapped in the snow and I know it’s cold 

Try singing to me try to hit the rights notes but she’s someone you can’t compose 

And you can’t control her 

You can’t predict her 

You can’t maneuver 

You’ll never get her 

You’ll never take it back and that’s why I’m severing 

My brain from my body just to think I’m clever and

It’s never gonna change is it?

Who cares that’s none of my business 

I’m faceless crazy and crazed when it gets more caged in than spacious 

And everybody knows I hate it but I could never take it back, I hate that 

And I could never make your mind better 

It’s just too hard for me to forget her 

You didn’t know her

You didn’t hold her

You didn’t loose her

How could you reminisce

You don’t know her

You don’t loose her

You don’t hurt her

How could you miss this

You never loved her

You never hurt her

You never lost her

I can’t be honest