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~ Lyrics ~

Shame on you for letting yourself break down 

Shame on you for not making a sound 

Shame on you for pushing everyone out 

It’s all your fault that you’re alone right now 

Your mental health is a mental hell 

A metal cell you won’t show or tell 

Or ring a bell man you hate yourself 

All your friends are depressed and you can’t even help 

Which makes you worthless to everybody else 

First time you cut was just to prove you could do it 

Just to show that you’re tough yeah you really proved it 

Second time you cut you realized you’re gonna lose it 

Then it spiraled down didn’t it David 

Ah, Dear Loved Ones;

I, I’m sorry about how this, how this has to go, and what I’ve done. I wish I was, I wish I was just happier. More proud of who I am and what I’ve done. I miss you.

You really act tough huh David 

But you know it’s fake and I know you hate it 

Repeating apologies but you never fix it 

Now you feel bad awe save it 

You don’t deserve to feel better 

Point that gun to your head and write a suicide letter 

Like you did that one day but never followed through 

And you believe that that makes you weak too

Remember that friend that just left you to bleed 

Yeah I know that cut runs so deep 

Deeper than your skin they don’t care what you need 

But you’re me and even I wanna see you scream 

Um, It’s just nobody understands. It’s like I put on this tough act and everyone thinks “Oh he’s happy all the time, he’s okay.” But I’ve been lying to myself and to everyone of you. I guess this is my succession. Everyone that wanted to see me fail finally got it.

Everyday I wake up I feel a little worse 

If life is such a blessing why do I feel so cursed 

Looking at my arm and all the scars burn 

I wish living didn’t always hurt 

I wish I could wake up and be happy 

I wish I wasn’t the one to blame 

I wish I was proud of the man I am

And I wish I didn’t have to play this game 

I’m sorry that I couldn’t just be better 

Or maybe you’re better off without me 

I’m sorry that I have to write you this letter 

But it’s what’s best for you 

You’ll see 

I felt your darkness

Felt your weakness

Trickle down my spine

Buried in your secrets

I felt the hatred

Felt the broken

I pray heaven’s gates are still open

You left me weary

Don’t forget me

You’re nothing but a shadow in our memory